“Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations.”

I don’t recognize life or my self at the moment. I am in such a turbulent time right now. Yet, I am strangely calm.

In one way my “life” seems to be in total chaos with nothing but problems one after the other, a new one each day. But, in another sense I am somewhat unconcerned by it. I don’t know if I am repressing and avoiding or if something has clicked and I just see it all as nonsense. I can’t say I see that it is not real. But, I do see that it has no meaning. That is the first lesson in ACIM. Could I really only be at the first step?

Nothing I see in this room [on this street,
from this window, in this place] means anything.

I have given everything I see in this room
[on this street, from this window, in this place] 
all the meaning that it has for me.